“In order to change the world, you have to get your head together first.”  Jimi Hendrix 

Change has been a big part of my life for the past few weeks professionally and personally.  It’s been buzzing around my head like a cloud of pesky gnats.  I need some time and space to get my head together and move forward.  Unfortunately, life and obligation don’t recognize I have some thinking to do.

My company has been working through a massive reorganization on many levels with everyone being assigned new titles with new responsibilities – in some cases it’s a whole new world.  That would be me.  We took several hours discussing the things we needed to “stop doing” and the things we needed to “start doing” during our week-long training for the new process.  As I contemplated these lists, my prevailing thought was: “If I stop doing all that, WHAT will my day look like?  I need to THINK about this for at least a week.”  Out came the stone tiles I had brought along with me.  (FYI: TSA doesn’t much like stone in your carry on)  They were to be gifts for my daughter’s bridal shower.  Each with a different Zentangle design, sealed and cork-backed.  In other words, coaster sets.  Throughout the week, I tangled, listened and internalized it all.  I have to say, this is the first time I have used Zentangle in this way, and it helped me focus.  I was getting distracted by all the commitments that I would have to honor, yet were not part of my new duties, and the need to flip the switch right away.  Tangling helped me put those concerns away and focus on what I needed to hear.  I work for a wonderful company and my boss (luckily I get to keep him) is completely fascinated by Zentangle and understands how I use it.  Plus I gave a few mini-lessons to co-workers – spreading the love around.

Once I got home, personal commitments took over.  I had one day to prep for the bridal shower, but I did it.  It was a wonderful success and we had a great time.  That night, my oldest daughter fainted at work (ER nurse) and knocked herself out for about 15 minutes and dislocated her jaw in the process.  She did scare the wits out of a drunk driver she was giving a lecture about drinking and driving.  Tests are ongoing, but it appears that she is now susceptible to concussion after her injuries from the accident last year.  Add lack of sleep, extreme stress from work that night and dehydration – and there you have it.  Since she isn’t allowed to drive till the last tests are done, I am now driving Miss Daisy.  That’s what she told me earlier this year when I was having trouble with my eyes and not allowed to drive – so turnabout is fair play.  I’ve started working with Linda Allred to stop my procrastination habits – perfect timing.  I need all the focus I can get through the rest of this year.  Wedding plans are taking over and we are in the home stretch.

So here I am.  It’s Friday and my calendar is wonderfully blank.  I have been waiting for this day – a big block of time to think, assimilate and get my head together.  And you can be sure I’ll be tangling away while I do it.

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